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7/31/2003

 
Back from Club Resurection again. Less to say this time - at least less to say to you, now.

Genuinely a lesser night, but there's no shame in that. Not all evening are a improvised storming of Olympus' gates. That said, there were enough moments to make it worthy of mention here. And - well - I promised a couple of people while I was there I would hammer something out for them.

They get oh-so bored at work, and since I just Play Videogames For A Living, I have to try and help them through. This is what friendship is for.

Anyway: Crib notes of the evening:

i) Realisation that I've never danced to "We Care A Lot" in a club before. I'm 27 years old. How did *that* happen?

ii) DJ Playfulness leading to a couple of genuine head-spinning moments. Most notably, Utah Saint's "Something Good" bounding to its cardiac-close, only to be punctured as a nail torn from Christ's hands drops through its centre in the form of the opening descending phrase of "Teenage Kicks". (See Notes).

iii) Chrissys snogging a geezer. A tall geezer. He hit on her and *everything*. (EDIT: 2 Geezers. One was shorter, however).

iv) Random Gamer Reader saying hello. It's a fame of sorts.

Oh, that'll do. I'm tired. Leave me alone.

Notes: Teenage Kicks is one of my favourite songs ever. Perhaps it means less to me than during those months of my nineteenth year when that and the Buzzcock's "Ever Fallen In Love" were the dual atrium of my pop-punk heart, but it still hits harder than it has any right to. Despite clearly owning a copy of the thing, I never listen to it. The day I turned twenty I decided that to deliberately listen to it now would be a betrayl of the song. I wasn't teenage anymore, and it would be a total lie. Something that precious deserved a degree of respect. This means that since that date I've only caught it when it plays randomly on the radio or a DJ drops it in a club. Clearly, it's a massively stupid thing to do. However, as a note of respect to the brave stupidity of my earlier iteration, I keep to the rule. Lets' keep this precious.



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7/28/2003

 
Thread over at the V: Most Influential Videogame Ever. Trying to avoid the feature I'm meant to be writing, so respond with this, off the top of my head. Worth repeating , as I never end up writing about videogames here.

SPACE WAR: Because it was first, and invented most of the tropes of the form - including two player games, joysticks and a science fiction setting.

PONG: Resolutely two player action. Also sports games. Also mass popularisation Pre-Space Invaders. Space-Invaders isn't included here, as most of its lessons were dealt with by either this or Space War.

PACMAN: First videogame with an actual character which you controlled. Anytime you see a videogame with a character on the Box, it comes directly from here. Noticeable for being the first game that appealed to women in any noticeable way. Admitedly, this last fact is hardly influential...

ADVENT: Invented the Adventure game and thus has influenced pretty much every single game in the world. Even action games feature adventure elements now.

ROGUE: Invented the RPG, and is responsible for all that's good and bad in the form. At the core level, there's few RPGs which are any different to this.

DONKEY KONG: Introduced Whimsy to a generally macho world and specifically Miyamoto and Mario. Without any of them, Videogames would be a different and infinitely more testosterone drenched place (Isn't it telling that the most acclaimed creator of videogames ever is such an utter wuss?).

SIM CITY: Popularised management as a concept, and pretty much invented everything connected to it. The rest can be placed at the feet of THEME PARK, which narrowly misses being included.

DOOM: Over Wolfenstein, as it was only here that the vast majority of the tropes of FPS gaming congealed. Wolfenstein was an odd and fast moving thing, like an Idiot cousin. Doom bears direct relation to the game proper. Also noticable for being the first game that was widely Modded.

DUNE 2: While it didn't actually *invent* RTS, as any Console geek will tell you, it's this which is most influential. While its relationship with its more successful sequel is similar to Wolfenstein and Doom, it managed to innovate more of the lasting elements of the form than Wolf dreamed of. In a real way, it's very similar to what people are still playing to this day. Add drag-and-click, and you've pretty much got it.

WIPEOUT: Invented videogames being sexy. Lifestyle cross-over. Dance culture. In a very real way, the most important Playstation game. Influences every single game with a modern band on its soundtrack and - culturally - things like GTA.

Thoughts on list: A little PC centric towards its arse end, but only because those two genres have dominated the PC ever since. I probably should have included the first MUD in there too, but fuck it. Have that as Number 11.





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7/25/2003

 
Am I a depraved individual?

That was rhetorical. I am depraved individual. Especially at the moment. Not just this moment. Generally moments around now.

Don't worry. I'm wearing clothes when writing this.

Take yesterday, when I spent a hour burning bored, nervous Thursday energy trying to disgust Kenickie on The V with references to vigorous onanistic acts and famous actresses. Mainly Clare Danes and Angelina Jolie (Trad). Bad gags, which I'd forgotten by the next day.

(Except the "Bibgy Goes Down" one, which went something like ""Kieron's trousers go down in the auditorium and damn the consequences", more like". And something about writer's beard-stroking and middle-distance staring. And a B/anal word thing)

Next day, a poster - I vaguely recognise the user name - asks me to stop because - y'know - he knows Clare Danes.

Now, I suppose if I had any decency in me, I'd have backed down. Instead, I escalate. Loki locks the thread before I come out with something like "If someone appears in Men's leisure magazine photoshoots in a provocative manner, they should honestly realise that people are going to be masturbating while thinking of them". Probably smart.

Why didn't I do the polite thing?

Well, I was mildly annoyed that anyone would think my gibberish serious.

Or maybe I just like playing with people's boundaries. In the pub this evening, my immediate response to Walker's wondering why his sister wants him to meet her new, considerably older, man was suggesting that perhaps they're interested in a threesome or similar.

But she's her sister, dude!

Yeah. That's why it's funny, dolts.

There's nothing I wouldn't make jokes about. This is, of course, a different thing to not taking something seriously. If I think someone's reason for being squeamish is bullshit, I'll trample all over their feelings. It's good for them. Get over yourself and save your offence for things that actually matter.

(Obvious subnote: Walker laughed)

Which leads vaguely to what's the most memorable conversation thread from the pub: An idea for a website.

Slash fiction about Games Journalists.

Masterful Production Editor Tony Elllis chasing late copy from quivering Freelancer John Walker in his how inimitable manner. Seductive Commissioning Editor Ross Atherton beguiling star writer Tim Stone into something he's probably going to regret. The Editorial meeting of PSNext goes completely out of control as they decide to start applying spot-varnishes.

C'mon. Someone out there must have the time, inclination and the talent required to make some of it.

Though it seems I can't. I may have actually found my limit.



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7/23/2003

 
Ste Curran doesn't understand my last blog post and thinks I'm mad. Fuck Ste Curran! Fuck him in the head!

I forgive him as he's brought the following information to my attention: Hatchett's has a Website.

Hatchett's is the most un-web pub in the world. As a drinking man, I liked it because it had the cheapest doubles in Bath. As a sober man, I like it as it has the cheapest pub lunches in Bath. As a gaming man, we're partial on the "Spot the missing nipple on the girl" machine in the corner.

It's a miracle.



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7/22/2003

 
From AIM:
MissAdaLovelace: Making bombs made of words to blow up, eventualy, in people's faces. Like sticking nitroglycerine in a Blue-Peter time capsule.

Excerpts from stuff I'm writing. Thinking to myself in note form:

//bits//
Like Sandman was to story, Phonogram is to Pop Music

//notes//
ALEC MEER = ALEC FURY or ALEC FURIOUS
INDIE DAN – Looks like Gollum

//screaming//
HOW THE FUCK COULD I LOSE THIS MUCH NOTES ON ANYTHING? WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK FUCK

//rethink//
Bollocks.


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Idly discussing with my friend Chrissy about which figure in literature we'd most like to have sex with. I end up expanding it to a variety of people in my address book. I compile the following results, for your pleasure:

"the brother (whose name escapes me) from The Glass Menagerie because he's a cynic, and he's desperate and i think it would be frenzied."
Chrissy Williams, Poet and Dreamer, in a deeply literal way.

"Oh god. I've managed to deny it till now but I can no longer. SUCH a cliché and it makes me blush with embarrassment to think even I would be SOO obvious. But fuck it, I can't help it. It's her. It's ENID.

When I was in hospital I wrote a long essay in my notebook entitled 'Why I Don't Fancy Ghost World Girls Anymore' which was then binned upon realization that with all the worlds in the world I simply couldn't make the above statement come true.

The reasons? Even I can not rationalize it totally in my head at the moment, needless to say I DESPISE the Zwigoff Enid cos I felt that it *totally* betrayed the original Clowes Enid, but I DO however totally fancy the specs off Thora Birch in that film so it makes my sick head even more revoltingly perturbed.

I recently signed up to lipstickparty AND friendster. And I'm writing a column on emo internet dating for girl about town."
David McNamee, Indie Dan Careless Talk Costs Lives.

"Olivia Presteign from Alfred Bester's 'Tiger! Tiger!' A murderess so Goth she can only see extremes of the electromagnetic
spectrum. If I'd have been the protagonist, Foyle, then we'd have been getting jiggy with it during the nuclear bombardment of New York. Oh baby."
Jim Rossignol, Freelance Word Scientist

"Angelique de Xavia from several of the Chris Brookmyre books, of course. A tiny muscly black police-officer kung-fu lady with firearms training, keen political awareness and an instant quip for every occasion? You'd have to be suffering from recent brain trauma NOT to, surely?"
Rev. Stuart Campbell, Videogames Journalism's answer to Al-Quadi

"Fanny Price, from Mansfield Park by Jane Austen. I never fancied the little prig much, but I love the idea of negotiating the
whole transaction wih her simply by saying her name with a question mark on.
the end.
PS: If I was a lady I would pick Godot, on the grounds that there would be absolutely no danger of him coming unexpectedly."
Tony Ellis, Putting the "Reproduction" into "Production" Editor over at PC GAMER.

"Actually I fear it might really be Rebecca - because she has all the real life person qualities that Enid lacks and few of the less-desirable (but still as disgustingly attractive?) Enid qualities that all my ex girlfriends appear to be shoddily composed of.

The grown up me says Rebecca.
The indie me says Enid."
David McNamee again, Probably taking the exercise too seriously.

"The lead character in Kirsten Dunst's autobiography. Or her biography. I'm not fussy."
Ste Curran, Available for Weddings and Bar Mitzvahs.

And me? Clara from the Torture Garden. What can I say? I like a woman who shares my interests.



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7/17/2003

 
I don’t like people who don’t like dancing.

I’ve said similar things before, and regretted them slightly. One of my pet hates is people who say things like “I simply don’t like people who don’t like XXX”. Really? What kind of freak are you that someone’s vague tastes in pop-culture dictate the foundation of your friendships?

Of course, they rarely mean it. Of course, I’ve seen exceptions – Manics Fans, mainly – but most are doing it for reasons of pure posturing, which is moderately despicable in itself.

(Before anyone says anything, there’s nothing pure about my posturing, which means I’m immune)

But still. I think that despite it disgusting me, the phrase “I don’t like people who don’t like dancing” is still true. It’s important to note the implication. It’s not “I don’t like people who don’t like to dance”, though I don’t really understand them. To enjoy dancing isn’t the same as participating. I hope, as a broken down no-legged elderly man, I’ll look across the floor of family Weddings and enjoy the vicarious pleasure of people in touch with themselves and in touch with the rhythm, lost in music.

(I still do now. Housemate Dan Gridle-octopus was doing exactly that this evening, collapsing, sweat kissed to just enjoy the sight of his friends enjoying himself. He’s almost immediately disturbed by Jon Hicks wandering over to ask if he’s okay and if he wants to talk. This is Life)

Such thoughts are in the air as I’ve just got back from a night at Club Resurrection. This is the relatively new venture by Ian, the gentleman who DJed at one of the more formative clubs in my Indie-Kid existance, Fusion. Fusion existed beneath a hotel, and could only be found by the dedicated and the informed. It was, generally, an Indie-metal club and since this is in the middle of Britpop, the home to a genuine small-city culture clash. Because Bath was, outside London, the one place where there genuinely /was/ a mod revival post-blur. Beneath the cargo-netting in the far corner skulked the black PVC forms of rockers and metalheads. In the far right, around the corner, clustered feathercutted boys and girls with perfect eyeshadow and cheap second-hand suits. And inbetween, I flitted with my social group, trying to sleep with everyone.

(One of the people I went out with tonight, Beccy, first met me at Fusion. I was unaware of this until she told me. Fusion, being a generally friendly and immensely sweaty venue, had a free attitude to water. Pints of the stuff were placed on the side for people to grab as they fell off the dancefloor. Apparently, on my journeys, I used to pick up extra glasses of water and deliver them to her and her (extremely cute) two friends. Of course, I have no memory of this, as this was my Wonderslut period. I’d have slept with mud if it was wearing a skinny fit T-shirt and expressed an interest in The Holy Bible.

For local colour, it’s worth nothing that one of them – Amanda – is now Jim’s girlfriend. Small fucking town for fucking.

EDIT: Apparently, this is simply not true. I'm rubbish, me.)

Anyway – Resurrection is in a similar vein to Fusion, but with a few changes. Mainly, the playlist. It’s simply the most Pop Indie-club I’ve ever been to in my entire life. That isn’t POP!!! in the post-Bis fanzine manner, or the lazy way of dropping a few current S-Club tracks into the mix (Though it does do that too). This is pop as a genuine Indie-pop night existant purely to get as many people on the dance-floor as possible. Check last month's playlist here – and that was considerably more obscure than the stuff they threw into the mix this week.

(I look at the dance-floor around one and think that – christ – it’s fucking packed. And then look around to the bar, and see the rest of the venue is virtually empty. An audience who is up for it and a DJ who wants to give it them. This is the heart of any good night out)

Except where it /really/ works is that rather than being a pure retro night, it side-steps into the area of a pop-night. It plays old favourites, but also threw the cutting edge of guitar-pop in as well. It’s the first chance I’ve had to dance to Hot Hot Heat, for example, and for that I’m grateful. You can never really tell how a song works untill you’ve thrown ludicrous shapes in a tiny venue to it.

The evening’s packed full of minor moments. Take the tall, coltish blonde who dances to every single song as if her life depended on it, but in the manner of a US bar dancer. Take the tiny Karen-O clone in a pink-dress, dressed as a fashion victim but clearly in love with the operatic noise-pomp of System Of A Down, hands arcing in the manner of angels. Take the glance between Alec and Myself as the B-52 guitar line of Gay Bar starts up. A small, business like nod. And then we’re on the dancefloor, attempting to combust oxygen with our limbs. Take leaving the venue and the eternal thrill of trying to work out whether the blessed rain has come at last, or whether it’s just the sweat racing out into the heavens.

Or take one blessed, unique moment when I collapse into the bloke’s toilet – after noticing the iconic man sign has had his bottom half rubbed off, leaving his a paraplegic eunuch – to find the lights all off and a row of restaurant-style candles placed along the urinal.

The light flickers. Men laugh. It’s the most romantic piss of our lives.

Time for bed.

Goodnight everyone, in every sense of the word.




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7/15/2003

 
Oh - it's me doing Love Day over at Digiworld today, so do pop by and see what's going on.

Today, however, we have an out-take. This is the third box-out from the recent "This Modern Age" feature for Edge. I was asked to only do two box-outs originally. Then I was asked to do a third, which I did. And then, due to the vagaries of Art, it couldn't fit in.

So I throw it out here. This was meant to be the relative light element in an otherwise fairly heavyweight feature.

//box out - text only this one...//
UNUSUAL SUSPECTS

The point of mods are, of course, freedom. Assorted oddities from the dark corners of the mod community.

CRATE DEATHMATCH: Originally appearing in Quake 2. You play a crate. In an arena full of crates. Metal Gear Solid's box-fetish taken to the logical extreme.

STRANGELOVE: Unreal Tournament Mod which allows you to, in a tribute to the Kubrik satire, ride the guided Redeemer missile.

SEX AND THE SINGLE ADVENTURESS: Neverwinter Nights mod which rather than slaying the fantasy menagerie - er - involves herself in a satirical fantasy pornotopia. Very funny.

BUZZYBOTS: Half-life mod with cell-shaded robot protagonists. No sooner than Cel-shaded was invented, someone in the mod community was up to replicate it.

MARBLE MADNESS 2003: Entirely unofficial mod for Unreal Tournament which puts real physics to good use by updating the classic arcade game.

SCIENTIST HUNT: Half-life mod where the famous scientists from the game run around the level, and the players compete to slay as many as possible, as bloodily as possible.

SNOW WAR: For Half-life, this is a simple multiplayer mod which swaps the machismo of guns for the joy of a snowball in the face, including actually having to gather snow.

FANTASY X: A German couple decide to use Deus Ex to create an adult-playground for online sexual fantasies. Never completed and, sadly, never titled Deus Sex.

PARTYZONE: Similar to Fantasy X, but actually released. Don't want to play Deus Ex. Go online and utilise an Emergent environment to party hard.

ASSORTED STAR WARS MATERIAL: In every game ever. It's telling that the first mod to appear for expansive fantasy RPG Morrowind was to import Bobba Fett's armour.


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Back from an Electric Eel shock gig. Stomach twisting. Thinking of the origins of the word "Hysteria".

MP3 hurts the speaker. Sleater Kinney's "Sympathy".

I sing along with things which aren't anything to do with me.

I think I feel.

"I've got this curse in my hands
All I touch fades to black
Turns to dust turns to sand
I've got this curse on my tongue
All I taste is the rust
This decay in my blood"




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7/13/2003

 
Been quiet on the blog front in the last few weeks, with my time-wasting Internet antics being aimed at a number of other elements. Not least Cassandra's release, which has kept me floating over a dozen or so forums watching and respoding to people's comments, questions and insults as best I can (I now have a subfolder in my Favourites called "Paranoid Thread Watching). It's gone down as well as can be expected. Most seem to enjoy it. The problems are, mostly, ones we knew about anyway. And a handful of people really fucking get it.

Which was always the point.

So - been busy, and not posting. Also, I've felt like a pretty fucking terrible excuse for a writer, having to force every sentence out. Which is why writing is a job. Any fucker can write when they're on fire - the skill is creating something presentable when you're not feeling anything. However, I think the worst of it has passed. The little voices are coming back and saying interesting things again.

I will turn these thoughts into money, via the medium of journalism.

Abstractly, this is my Work blog. It really exists to point people in the direction of things I’ve written and involved with. The big one starts tomorrow: DIGIWORLD. I’m going to have to write a bit more explaining what’s actually going on for those not actually familiar with infamous Digitiser Ceefax program.

Essentially, it’s a games website which shouldn’t be like anything else.

Trailer’s up tonight. Starts proper tomorrow. Updated daily.

http://digiworld.tv/

Pay attention.

Also worth mentioning:



I wrote the cover feature for this Month’s Edge magazine. It’s ten pages of absolutely straight, painstakingly researched journalism with barely any of my stylistic quirks visible. It’s the sort of thing which people don’t actually believe I can write. But – y’know – fuck ‘em.

Also worth mentioning Mrk 2:



New issue of Careless Talk out. Barely anything from me in it – two reviews – but probably the best one ever. Every part of the machine is firing beautifully now and I’m proud to be involved with it.

Currently on the Gillen MP3 player is Alanis Morisette’s terrible stadium-filler “You Learn”, due to a conversation I was sharing with my Poet Friend Chrissy on Friday. It’s one of those songs which you find yourself editing in your head and critiquing for the sake of it, fighting the urge to hunt anyone who the song speaks to and tell them…

Well, tell them what my mental edit says.

You don’t learn. You never learn.

So fuck it: Daisy Chainsaw’s Love Your Money at max volume, then Bristol.



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7/01/2003

 
Cassandra Project Episode 1 online in various places. You'll need the latest version of Deus Ex with a multiplayer patch to get anywhere.

Mirrors, in the order I suggest you hit them. If you can be bothered to wait, please use Fileplanet. People have been generous enough to donate their bandwidth.

Mirror 1
Mirror 2
Mirror 3
Mirror 4
Mirror 5

More later. Or alternatively, I'll have tarted up this entry a bit.


 

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